Okay, well the good news is that “the first date night” I speak of is a doozy! We are going to see U2 in concert! Yay!! And yes, the picture below, is of the CRAZY looking stage they are going to be building in the New Cowboys Stadium next week! So that is going to be super fun!
But… I’m scared to go! Molly is still just a little wee thing. And she has never been left with anyone besides my husband or I. On top of that, she has just gotten her bedtime routine down,and been sleeping through the night perfectly – will this change mess up all that work? Will she be traumatized by mommy and daddy not being there when she goes in her crib? Will she think we left her? These are my worries.
My husband has a saner approach to this. He says we have to leave her at some point, and that we wont be gone that long. Also most of the time we are gone she will be sleeping anyway. Plus, he reminds me that we will have the two best possible babysitters ever. His brother, and our sister in law. They are parents themselves – GREAT, AMAZING parents actually. We love them, and they love our Molly. So that couldn’t be much better.
My fears don’t have anything to do with not having faith in them. It just feels like a watershed moment. Our little baby has never had to go without mommy or daddy when she calls. I love that she has had that security. It’s time though. I know it’s time.
Just as I’m writing this my fear has become clearer. I am scared that she will feel abandoned and not be able to process why mommy and daddy aren’t near. But perhaps my greater fear – is that she doesn’t need me the way she used to. That perhaps she has grown up more than I’m ready for. Deep breaths. Deep breaths…
*Foot note: I guess it’s good we are going to a dark, loud concert on this first outing. If I start to cry, or fall apart – people will just think I really, REALLY like Bono. lol.